Remember me

I miss Pru more than ever now, I frind myself constantly talking about her and always thinking about her and what she would be doing now.
When I was suffering from my poroblem and Harry and Pru were alive, everymorning when I left the house I had to say 'bye Harry, love you... Bye Pru, love you'. This would put my over active mind at rest untill I came home each night. By doing this it kept them safe, death could not touch them, nothing could harm them. They would not get upset or miss me for I kept them safe from these few words. I realise now that they are both gone and my words can not effect them. I love them dearly and anyone who knows me knows that. My walls of my room are full of pictures of them. I may be obsessive about them, but that's who I am.
To tell the truth I idolise them. A idol is someone or something you put before God and how can I not. I love them with all me heart, I would die for them - although I know they would never want that of me. I think God knows that I put them before him, and i know that this is wronge. Maybe God wanted me to see and so thats why they are both gone, but even after death I idolise them. I could not posiably image them not being the biggest part of me.